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18 March 2005
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well.today was fine. its was good in the beginning. now, it sucks. i dno. went out jux now. for my classes. den i got some teases here and dere and it was good. den while waitin for de others to finish thier work, my bro scribbled his darl's name. so i got influenced. and began scribblin my name, his name, and a heart shape. wads up wid you yana? but sometimes, its like my feelings for hiim. on and off. stupidly. i feel so stupid. i feel so used. i feel so f*cked up. why? am i to spend my holidays thinking bout why i've been so stupid, about why he is treating miie dis way, abour why i cant let him go.? am i supposed to spent my holidaes, filling dem up with cries every other nigth, nightmares about me and him? or am i supposed to spent them in happy situations, in the comfort of my fwens and loved ones. or even spending my rest time on stupid tys.? i dno. wads wid miie nowdays. my tears jux seem to fall so easily. i dno why.. i still piles and tons of hw, waiting for miie to complete dem. if i were to follow my inner self, i rather copy them. hell. yana.. yanaa. getting frm bad to werst. wad can u peeps expect wen u are going thru a painful life? a life whereby each step hurts..? where u cant even cry without being asked why. and if you were to give a vauge answer, they bombard you with thousands of question. wad d hell? i hate my life. i wanna die. no. no. i don. i jux wan a simple life. with no complications. haiish. why does my heart have to hurt? why does it have to break into tiny pieces, by the ones dat i love? do i mean notink, dat they go to d extend of hurting miie. f*ck it. i don hav d mood. *_* `ifeelworstdeniwasbefore. |
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nor liyana mohd khalis.i'm always in love with pretty boys. like as if i don't learn from experience, i always give in to sweet words. and i never learn from the past. i'm vulnerable to hurt, but i'd like to believe i'm stronger than i seem. jauh di dasar hatiku, aku tahu aku masih kasihimu dan menyintaimu. namun kau sudah berpunya, kau sudah bercinta. disini kita berakhir, tergantung segala cerita dan kisah lama. wishlist
an arsenal jersey please.to watch a play. tagboard
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